Sometimes in this job you have to wrap it all up and hide the emotions behind the smile. Some break….
I don’t even know if/when im coming home. How do I know im ready – I’m pretty certain I know whats waiting for me back in the UK and if I left once then whats to stop me, lets face it – if it wasnt enough before then it definitely won’t be enough if I go back after experiencing a different life.
So the road is long and winding, and that’s life. The direction you take is yours to make. When the path ends, well that’s yours aswell. Once you leave the road life’s a cul-de-sac, a roundabout. It doesn’t change.
What to do, what to do.
I’m currently watching “What women want” on BBC Iplayer and it’s reminded me off a few times in the past and makes me think about the future and other general random non-events.
Have you ever had a moment when you just knew what was going through someones head? Knew what they were thinking whether by intuition or a misglanced look at a text message or email?
I think we have all been there, what do you do? if it’s bad do you keep it to yourself and hope they change their mind? Do you try and change their mind in some way….or are you like me, would you torture yourself that you weren’t perfect – would you want to make up for something or bring up a situation. The real question here though, the real point is that by knowing what someone else thinks – and by knowing I mean 100% – certain knowledge. Do you change yourself? does it make you act and think differently knowing how you are being judged or what someones thinking about you. Surely it’s better to be yourself – not knowing but playing the infinite game of guessing, intuition and experience, juggling your qualities until after pain, happiness, excitement and fear you find a balance. True to yourself.
I don’t think women really know what they want anyway…